Thoughts for a post-Tumblr era.
My video for "Personal Space" is out today, and I wanted to talk about it directly, not through a press piece or in a 15-second instagram story.
I wrote this song about a year and a half ago with my friend Colyer - we wrote it like I was grabbing my brain and screaming at it to shut the fuck up. I have a lot of anxiety and sometimes it feels like my brain is sprinting in circles and the rest of me can't keep up. This song is me trying to get away from my own head, and to have some peace from the chaos going on in there.
When COVID-19 hit and we all went into quarantine, we all were kind of forced to lock ourselves in with that chaos. I've had a lot of moments, especially lately, where I'm dissociating and feel like I really don't know who I am anymore. Purpose is a funny thing when you have to figure out how to reinvent it for yourself, over and over again.
I know a lot of people who feel the same way. So I wanted to figure out a way to visualize these emotions and try to connect us. My friend Sean (also my roommate's boyfriend // in my quarantine circle) and I put together the idea of me being surrounded by other versions of myself; invisible talker-demons that wrap themselves around me and don't let go. We shot it all in my house and on my block, with one camera and a lot of room lighting and iPhone flashlights.
I hope you feel seen.